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Nov. 2nd, 2010

Admin with a Sword

Americans:

Go vote.

Jul. 1st, 2010

chibi-me

WTF.

How exactly is it that this woman hasn't had her license to practice medicine revoked yet?

Nov. 6th, 2009

Admin with a Sword

Woohoo.

The following may not make much sense to non-geeksCollapse )

*does the ninja sysadmin victory dance*</p>

Jun. 6th, 2009

Admin with a Sword

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V, you complete and utter MAGNIFICENT BASTARD...

Apr. 3rd, 2009

Global Frequency

Stop. No more.

Look.

I know things are bad for you right now.

You've told me how bad things are. At length. In detail.

And I realize that it's a great relief to be able to talk to someone about them who'll listen and offer a shoulder to cry on while you unburden yourself, even if he's a continent and an ocean away and can't do all that much to affect the situation... But I can't be that someone anymore.

I realize that my problems are nearly trivial compared to yours... But combined with having to consider and bear yours, they are starting to wear me down. My own safety valves are meditation and weekend gaming sprees; there's currently a limit to how much benefit I can get from the former, and the last several weekends you - and here is one thing you probably haven't considered, but I'm using the plural 'you' here rather than the singular - have managed to interrupt my attempts to relax via gaming spree by deciding to unburden yourself in IM or IRC or even on the phone for hours while I have to tell my gaming group to go on without me with a sinking sensation in my stomach that once again, I won't be able to get any real unwinding done this weekend.

I'm not entirely sure that my recent attack of poor health was entirely a coincidence, either.

So, please. No more. I realize you're hurting, and I realize that not having me to discuss your current crisis with will make it harder on you - but everyone has a breaking strain, and I feel I'm rapidly approaching mine.

Those of you who this is addressed to will probably know who you are, but understand this: I'm not angry with you. I don't blame you. You have troubles, massive troubles that are weighing you down and I know how much of a relief it can be to unburden yourselves even for a while. I don't resent you for unburdening yourselves on me. In fact, I feel honored and flattered that you trust me enough to let your guard down enough to unburden yourselves to begin with.

But right now I don't have the energy for it anymore. I'm sorry.


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Aug. 3rd, 2008

chibi-me

In which I share a friend's rage.

Because this definitely is something to be angry about.

Jul. 22nd, 2008

chibi-me

Lyrics: Anouk - One Word

Warning: May make you cry depending on your mood.

I close my eyes, and imagine you here...Collapse )
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Jul. 21st, 2008

chibi-me

This meditation thing does seem to be working.

Of course, 'general mental well-being' is a little hard to quantify, which makes it hard to explain to skeptics when they ask you for details.

Here's one: Cut for folks who don't want to hear lengthy MMORPG ramblingCollapse )

Jul. 11th, 2008

chibi-me

State of the Dragon, July 2008

Wow. It's been well over a year since the last time I tossed a larger chunk of serious ruminations into the aether at large (last month's haiku doesn't count, although writing it was a more profound experience to me than it might have appeared).

So, what all has been happening, and whence the sudden resurgence?

A few months ago, I started taking Zen classes, after seeing an advert for a class conveniently close to the station where I depart and arrive on my way to and from work.

I've made other attempts in the past to find some way to help me sort myself out somehow, with mixed results, and since the course price was easily within my budget, I figured I'd give it at least a shot. So far, I think this one is working. The effect isn't spectacular (and frankly, I'd be distrustful of any course that offers to enable you to completely change your life within two months) but I am feeling better about myself; as for those among you who insist on demanding tangible results... Well, I'm writing this post, aren't I?

More than that, there's any number of friends I haven't talked much lately, and I'm starting to discover that I want to. Re-establishing contact's always a daunting task (at least, it feels like one for me) but friends are worth it.

Moved into a new place about a year and a half ago. It's a lot larger than the student apartment, and a lot cleaner - that last came in handy when I suffered a major asthma attack that was bad enough to need a trip to the emergency room. Ah well, I got better.

Still playing City of Heroes, still enjoying it; definitely worth the $20 a month (two accounts, although I may fold them down into one now that we can purchase more character slots). Started playing EVE Online, which is pretty but grindtastic, but there's always been something about the space genre that will keep me interested despite that flaw.

Need to start taking up Capoeira again; if there's one thing I've come to accept, it's that reducing my food intake sufficiently to significantly reduce my weight. It's unlikely I'll ever be less than what my friends euphemistically described as 'cuddly', but I'd like to stay 'cuddly' rather than let it grow to 'chubby' or 'would-be Sumo'

My sister graduated veterinary medicine last week. I'm as proud of her as I was when she emailed me two years ago to tell me she managed to install Ubuntu on her desktop computer without my help.

That's all for now; there might be more soon, as I continue sorting out thoughts in my head.

Jun. 5th, 2008

Admin with a Sword

Haiku

Nothing is perfect;
but the cat brushing past my legs does not care.
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